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Its hard to be clay... that is why it is so important that we grow in our trust of Him whose hands we are in. It hurts to be shaped and molded... it does. But God is still God and He is still to be trusted.

Friday, July 5, 2013

Another July 6th

It comes around every year.  July 6th.  But this year I'm kinda mad.  I've been faced to deal with my head injury/"encephalomalacia" these past 9 months or so.  Its not a hurdle to get over, its not something that's going  to be over someday. No this is about accepting reality... and I have.  I have not worked since September 2012.  I have not earned a dime... responsibilities have been kept at a very low minimum.  And yes... I'm back living with mom and dad. And this is how it will be.  Why? Because I cannot handle stress.  I did myself in. My brain says "no more". That right frontal area that controls emotions and such. Yeah its still a bunch of damaged swollen tissue according to an MRI.  And so meds keep me from going crazy.  And meds mess up my stomach. 

Why did this happen.  A drunk driver driving at 4:30 in the afternoon on a Friday...  July 6th. 
But I'm alive.    I'm alive and I have a relationship with the Almighty Sovereign Loving God because of the work  and death of Jesus Christ on my behalf.  So I cling to that... to Him.